Learning to Listen
Sometimes the best resolve shows up when we allow ourselves the time and space to get real quiet. The answer is always there with us. Just as Glinda the good witch in The Wizard of Oz says to Dorothy: "You've had the power all along my dear." We just need to be able to sit long enough in the silence to gain access and hear it.
A couple months ago I was hitting walls. Big walls, little walls, head bashing on the bricks kind of walls and then the old Openhartz.com website got a malware so bad it was shut down. None of my work was backed up and everything I wrote over the last 3 years was gone and altogether forgotten. BALLS! Lesson #1: Back up your work. Lesson #2: When we ignore the whispers they start to scream. This was the universe screaming at me to evolve, to grow and to be more authentic. Why? I was distracted. I had no focus and everything and anything would pull me away like Dorey, a little blue fish, meandering around in the deep ocean of life.
After a few tears mourning the hours of hard work lost, I decided to purge everything in my way. Relationships, distractions and commitments, everything that was no longer serving my true purpose. I closed the doors and with a giant exhale I sat. Alone, in the silence, untroubled by a timeline or a need to explain my choices and I listened. I knew that if I sat long enough, eventually and effortlessly, whatever was meant to stick would come back and stay. It's a game of faith and trust.
Often we avoid our own silence because it can be uncomfortable to find what we uncover but with every breath came a hollowing of any ancient interference, exhaling into a deeper understanding of where to wander next. I sat there free, unburdened & restored. I found my direction and here we are. It's like taking the time to pull over and ask for directions. It's annoying but in the end you get to where you need to go a lot faster than if you circle around and around lost without intention.
It's easy to get caught up in the chaos. The work and the divine responsibility we have to ourselves and to our purpose is to weed through the noise, tune into the cues, turn down the volume of life's turmoil, removing the clutter and turning up the volume to self-awareness. For in those moments, when we are very still, can we focus on the light within and nurture all that is meant to flourish.